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My Dream in The Year of The Tiger

2010-01-29T03:07:00.000-08:00

According to chinese calender, Year of Ox, officially will end in 15 days. Maybe 2009 wasn't a good year for some of my friends but for me, it's a good year.
1. At last, i graduated with my degree.
2. Right after finished my final exam, i have my job as an English teacher in Chong Hwa Independent High School.
3. Mummy's eyes getting better. From 2 months once a checkup to 4 months once.

In order to welcome Year of Tiger, we already have a long planning. For example, what to bake, what to cook, how to decorate house and most important is the color of our new year clothes. Those girls in my house (mummy and elder sister) started their shopping spree since December. Bought a lot of new clothes with different color so that it will bring 'ong' to the person who wears it.So, Year of 2010 is Tiger. I have 2 tigress in my house (My elder sister and her elder daughter)
Hopefully this 'twin' tigress will be good.
Why i put the picture above? Why it isn't colorful?How am i going to compete with others?
The reason i put this picture is because for the Year of Tiger 2010, i hope i can 'colored' the year with my own color. Who say tiger must be in 'tiger's' color? Why can't i put red color or blue color?

If i win RM8888, 2010 is definitely a 888 (fa fa fa in cantonese) year for me. I can realized my dream.
Firstly, i can go for my very first car. A MyVi!!!!!Of course need to get a license first.. I'm happy.. and yet worried. Cause you know, car depends on petrol, not water!!!Somemore same as us, car need for spa & treatment once a while. That will be a headache moment. (Argghh..!!! Calculate calculation and calculation)

Nah... car maybe is 1 of my dream.... but if i win RM8888, first person i want to give surprise is my mummy. Give her a big big ang pow!
Since young,mummy give ang pow to me. No matter how hard is life, she never missed it. So year 2010 will be my first year celebrating Chinese New Year by contributing to family.
If i have RM8888, RM888 will be for my mummy's ang pow. Left RM8000.

Secondly, i wish i can make appointment with 1 of the famous eyes specialist in Singapore. Just want to check my mummy's eyes. Hope she can see even better. So there goes, air ticket, hotel, etc which will cost me around RM3000.

Thus, left RM5000. My mum need a handphone. So will buy a new handphone for her and also 1 for me. Two handphones will cost me around RM2000.

So left RM3000. During Gawai's Holiday, i plan to bring my whole family come to KL. So air ticket for 7 persons, (Mummy, elder sister and 3 kids, 2nd bro with wife n irfan) cost me around RM1000. Left RM2000.

All their expenses will be cover by me.. (If i win RM8888).

The rest RM2000, half will be given to my mummy as her pocket money, cause i don't know when will i have a chance to give her such amount.

Another RM1000 for ME!!!! (Let me be selfish a bit lah...) Just want to keep RM1000 for me to shopping...

So.. here goes RM8888.

MY DREAM IN THE YEAR OF TIGER

I really hope i can spend those money with my family. Maybe some think i couldn't do so, but i'm eager to do so. I really wish some how i can repay my family as for their efforts in taking care of me and never let me off. I love them very much.

Hope year of tiger can realized my dream.

Bye Bye 2009,Welcome 2010

2010-01-01T06:14:00.000-08:00

Spent last few minutes with Angel at McD nearby our place..
Lots of happening in the year of 2009...
Sad, happiness, betrayal, occasions etc..
However i hope in 2010, things will get better.
What i hope to do in 2010;
1. Hope could stable my current job not only because of the income, but because of those experiences and meeting different people around me.

2. Try to figure out what should i do with current relationship. Shall i let go or keep going with it?

3. Spend more time with mummy. Mum sacrifice a lot for me. Feel sorry cause she worried about me all the time when i'm here in KL.

4. To have more alternate income if possible, so that can pick mum and stay together with me.

Year of Tiger.. Hope all my friends will have smooth life. Nothing is more important than FAMILY. Without FAMILY there won't be YOU today.

From Airport

2009-11-21T18:31:00.000-08:00

Having breakfast at McD, LCCT.
Can't wait to board on flight back to Sarawak.
Flight will be on 12.05pm.
Wondering if i will miss KL or not..
Will only come back to KL 21st next month.
Kinda regret to come back early here..
Perhaps is because recently not really good with him..
I don't know what is he doing lately..
Last few days in KL, end up not really pleasant.

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Sure i will miss KL and him too..

Going Back Home

2009-11-16T22:58:00.000-08:00

Yeah!!!
It's time for me to go back home this sunday!
Really can't wait for it.
Just want to leave everything here and go back home.
Even though just 1 month, it is enough for me to recharge my energy.
Yesterday night managed to buy ticket for CNY. Have to use bus from kuching. But it still ok as long as i can go back to my home.

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2009 definitely will be a unforgettable year for me.
Have my first job at Chung Hwa Independent High School.
Joined this school since mid of May.
Just a blink, it already come to end of school semester.
Unfortunately, we have to depart with 3 of my English department's colleague.
1 of them is Mdm Jaspal. Devoted 19 years for the school. Very responsible teacher. I guess everyone will miss her so much.

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Recently i read some people's blog. I've found out that they really like to curse people. Especially that someone. Cursing people non-stop and trying to get sympathy from other people. So pathetic. By cursing people will help them to solve their problems?

Special for a friend named Tang Yu Hua

2009-11-05T05:53:00.001-08:00

This blog is special for a friend named Tang Yu Hua.

She is an 'angel' to me.
Never angry or scold anyone.
Helped me a lot during my Year 3 in Uni, with all the strangers.
She always helped me with my homework, always be there for me when i needed someone.
I really glad to have her with me as Year 3 was unhappy year for me.

Hua Hua..
Thanks for always be there for me.
You give me the strength when i almost 'collapsed'.
Thanks for unconditionally helping me.

Even though there will be lesser chances to meet, i do believe no matter how many years after, i won't forget i have such nice friend like you.

Do take care.

Counting days to go back home....

2009-11-05T05:26:00.000-08:00

Can't wait to go home this 22/11...
It's been almost 10 months i'm not at home!!!
This is the first time ever i left my home for sooo long...
Even thought will only at home for 1 month, i bet i will really appreciate these special time with my family, especially mummy..
I have a lot of things want to tell her and i bet she also the same..

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My anticipation;
- can't wait to see Irfan.. Mummy said he can talked well and still very cute..

- Also my nieces and nephew.. I guess 3 of them will be grown taller than before..
- Spending time in kitchen baking cakes with mummy.. (even though mummy is the one that does all the cleaning) but i will still bake cause mummy likes my cake..
- Shopping with Puan Lim @ my elder sister.. hahaha... She is a shopaholic.. luckily she is not in kl. If in kl, definitely spending time shopping.. Mummy also the same. But she can control it. She will be happier if we (the children) buy her things.

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My goal(s);
- trying to get my driving license as i plan to have my own car by the end of 2010. Hopefully can have one.. B said if everything going smoothly, he 'might be' paying 1st installment for me.. :)
- having a car = more responsibility. So need to have additional money. Trying to find some students for tuition.. or other options to add up my income..
- less shopping.. B calling me "Shopping Queen" .. I have to control myself... Be more discipline..
- can buy things for mummy.. Heartache when see mummy wanted that thing badly, ending up didnt buy it cause thinking of saving money (for family, in case of emergency). Mummy devoted her life for this family. And it's time for me to help mummy carrying this burden.. At least i want to buy some supplement for her.

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I'm still ok with my current job. Begin to like it. Teaching and learning on the same time. Could see different type of characteristics.

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26 Sept was one of my best friend's wedding. Mimi Chen.. Congratulations to her. Not only because she had moved to new phase of her life but also expecting her precious one soon next year. Knowing her for more than 7 years, i know she will be a good mother.

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Since i moved to Tar Villa, been meeting up quite frequent with my another best fren, Angel. Know her since we are in Year 1 of university life. Going through ups and downs. We'd quarreled before. But after than is closer than ever.

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I believed having these best friends is my luckiest time in my life. I always can go to them whenever i have problem. Not like other people, just hurting others without thinking of the consequences. I guess life is like this. Some are meant to hurt you while other are meant to be there for you. Just like Angel and Mimi. (I'm not forgetting you, Yu Hua)

Hypocrite me..

2009-08-17T05:40:00.000-07:00

Maybe sometimes the way that i talked offended someone..
That's why they think that i'm hypocrite..
I guess that person hates me a lot..
Anyway, the purpose i open this blog is for those people to voice out their hates against me..
So it freedom of speech here..
I believed if want to be a successful person, must be able to accept all those critics from all people around it..

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The school holiday is around the corner..
Still thinking of what want to do..
1st plan: Ipoh
2nd plan: Melaka
3rd plan: Seremban
4th plan: just stay at home marking papers..
Which one should i choose since H1N1 is all over the places..
Miss home a lot recently..
4th branch is opening soon next month..
Hopefully everything is going smoothly..

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For those that read my blog...
Thanks because willing to spend time reading my blog..
I miss you all a lot..
Really...
Since our convocation last week, i don't know when i will see you all again..
Keep in touch..

*HugZ...

The Day After Tomorrow

2009-08-08T06:40:00.000-07:00

It's almost a month ago since i update my blog..

A lot of things happen within this month..

Preparation for my convocation..and working...

Yesterday was my first convocation ever and perhaps it's the last convocation.. On this big day, i'm

alone. Mummy couldnt come to my convocation.. Dear Dear also..

Last week school closed for a week, because our school have suspicious cases of HIN1. Didnt spend

time with dear dear cause he is busy.

Nothing special happened.. Convocation's picture is still in my handphone.. Will upload it soon..

Mummy told me that my area currently facing water crisis.. Worried about mummy.. Haze +

H1N1, seems like there is more disaster ahead.. Hope all these will go away soon.

To some1 that leave message in the chatroom, maybe i'm not a good person, but i don't think

that bully people is one of my hobby..

Hectic Life

2009-07-13T18:43:00.000-07:00

With the H1N1 outbreak..

my life getting busier...

Lot of things to do before school close down..

Stupid haze makes my nose uncomfortable..

New friend joining us since yesterday..

Hopefully she can cope with everything as she still unaware that her life will be busy starting next week...

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Relationships.. all still quite ok..

No improvement...

No updating..

Tired...

It's been a while

2009-07-01T19:01:00.000-07:00

It's been a while since i update this blog..

Life is not easy since the outbreak of A H1N1..

I, myself down with flu, headache and sore throat frequently..

But it is not H1N1...

The stupid weather really make people sick..

Is there any other place where i can escape all these..????

Boring Day

2009-06-15T20:05:00.000-07:00

It's boring day...

Hot and sunny..

Have a lot of things to do.. Just that don't know where to begin from..

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Suddenly miss mummy very much..

And dear dear too...

I've not seen them since Chinese New Year..

Miss mum's cook..

Mum will always cook my favourite dishes whenever i'm at home..

Herbal soup..

Detoxine herbal tea.. she always want me to drink it in a big portion (which i always at the end half with be going down through the sinki...)

heheehe...

I love homemade soya bean..

Really miss those food now..

Miss everybody...

Feels like want to hug everybody and tell them that i love them..

Alone during my Big Day...

2009-06-13T21:43:00.000-07:00

Mentioned previously that i'm looking forward for my convocation..

Just checked my email and been informed that my convocation session will be on 7/08/2009, 7.30am.

It's FRIDAY!!!!

Damn early...

Now i began to hate FRIDAY!!!

Plus.. my family definitely couldnt come to attend my convocation...

>.<

My dear dear also couldnt come..

I will be all alone during the convocation...

It's June

2009-06-10T23:26:00.000-07:00

View From Jonker Walk

Went to Melaka for holiday...
It's been a while since i've been there...
Things haven't changed much..

Jonker Walk still the same old place...Crowded with people from all over Melaka and even foreigners...
Then went to walk at Sungai Melaka...
Coincidentally on that nite, there is some Pesta Sungai Melaka..
Beautiful fireworks can be seen from Jonker Walk.

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This end of month, my dear dear will come to kl for 1 whole week...Hopefully can spend some time with him, since he come here for P1 Wimax training course..

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The next thing that i'm looking forward is... MY CONVOCATION!!!
At last... after all these years...
Mummy said she will come..
Dear dear also...
Hopefully they keep their promises...

Typical Post

2009-05-26T17:50:00.000-07:00

Well...

It will be just a typical post today..

I'm getting my 1st pay today~~!!!!

Feel damn happy...

But the bad news is... $$ will disappeared in a second...

Die gao gao....

This Friday my school will celebrating Teacher's Day. And then Saturday will be school

holiday~~

Yahooo..~~Don't have to wake up early in the morning for 2 whole weeks~hehehe...

Dear Dear quite busy lately with his site project..

Spend little time talking to him..

Just hope that everything will go well.. especially during this critical period...

I have to wait for few more weeks only can see him.. Haiz...

D D said, if everything goes well, by August or September, he will have 2 Star Cruise's ticket.

And then me and him will go for 'pre-honeymoon' trip...

Should i look forward it?Cause some say, don't put too high hope on something...

Once you put your trust on somebody, it means that you giving
chances for him/her to hurt you

Punch me

2009-05-21T20:27:00.000-07:00

Sunny...

Hope there is someone to punch me now..

24 hours is not enough for me..

$$ is not enough for me..

These few days have to mark all those non-sense essay by Form 1 student. Only now i realized that, become a teacher is not as easy as what they thought. Especially marking exercise, controlling class, etc..

All the students are very very talkative, and believe me.. if you give them 25 hours, they will totally fully use the time to talk...

$$ $$ $$...

D D and me worried about money..

We are still planning for our future.... If only we have future.....

15-05-2009

2009-05-15T03:43:00.000-07:00

Sunny..

It's been a while since i update. Recently started new work as English Teacher, busy searching rooms available at the area and online-ing. Hang-ing out with my ji muiss... Angel at 1Utama.

So many things happen and yet dunno where to start.

1st- Went to 1Utama with Angel and meet her sister, Diana, and my ex coursemate - Ai Loon and Ka Ngi (Hope i spelled her name correctly.. heheee). Went to have nice lunch at Chilli's then for movie - Wolverine. A lot of things to buy, yet i only bought a pcs of new clothes and belt from Nichii's. I used to be quite familiar with 1U, but then after ages... it seems like.I almost forgetten where is the location for certain shops. Meanwhile for Angel, i think she can walk with her eyes close.. hehehe... Having a great time with them.

Then ler...

11 May 2009, started my first day job lo. As an English Teacher. Went to the interview previous friday with my friend, Cherry. And both of us got the job instantly. 1st 2 days quite bored for us as we only need to baby-sit few classess and free for the rest of the day. The school compound is not an ordinary school... Very large ler... Cherry and I always lost in certain area..

On the 3rd day, we get used to the environment. The school is having their mid year exam from 13/05 till 20/05. These few days, we invigilate the students. Different level of students. Quite tiring as need to stand/ walk around the classes. My next challenge..How to control form 1 students... Die lo....

Haiz... don't want to talk about the job...

Lately... my health seems to become worst and worst.... i'm worried....

Me and dear dear lately going on quite smooth. Hopefully we will have a good ending after all these long. But who knows what will happen next.

Hopefully all will go smooth...

Happy Mother's Day

2009-05-10T01:22:00.000-07:00

Mummy,
Happy Mother's Day. Even though for this year Mother's Day, i still not able to celebrate with you, i promise for the next Mother's Day, you will have a surprise. In fact, not only mother's day, but also your birthday.

Mummy.

Thanks for being always there for me. Even though sometimes i make you sad and angry, your love for me never changed.

I love you mummy..

New Members

2009-05-08T08:23:00.000-07:00

Latest Irfan. He sweats all the time, even during raining day. =.="

Posting for his mum to take picture

U see.. Once i took up my phone, he'll make all sorts of cute cute action.

When he was around 6-7 months old, in his yellow Mercedes.

I've mentioned before about two new members in my family- Kian Hui and Irfan. Well, i will let you guys see some cute picture. At first i have hundreds pictures of Irfan, but due to stupid laptop, all the pictures disappeared. Feel very sad loh.. Cause kids grow up in a second and the same pic might not appeared again..

18th April 2008 - My brother and his wife welcomed their precious baby which later be name Irfan.

Why he is name Irfan, seems like Malays name ho.. Ya la Ya la.. My 2nd sis-in-law is Malay. So you know la, my brother converted to her religion. Some people said my bro is stupid la, cause sacrfice to eat pork etc. But i think, love would make people blind. Love is their everything. I do understand how my brother feels lo..

Anyway, back to Irfan. It's been 3 months since i last saw him. 2009 is his first year following us to visits relatives during Chinese New Year. As usual, cute baby is the main attractions among the crowd. He would smile whenever my auntie tend to hug him. I believed his smile would 'killed' girls when he grow older....

Last year 3 months long semester holiday, i spend most of my time with him. He will call me 'gu gu' when he starts to talk. Everyday, i take his pictures in different kind of post. And he is very good in posting. Once Irfan saw i took up my camera phone, he'll post certain cute actions. He'll follow me wherever i went to.

Quite missing him now. By the time i go back end of this year, i guess i'll see cute little boy running here and there.

By the way, i'll work as English teacher at Chong Hwa Independent High School starting next Monday. Mummy quite happy with it but on the same time also worried about me. 1st is because i dont have any experience in teaching, 2nd i'll be teaching lower forms kids (Form 1 & 2) with 50 students in a class. Si liao lo... I begin to regret liao..How ah...Haizz..

Just now called D. He is at McDonald with his friends. Sometimes i think i turns into 'queen control'. And D seems like 'obidiently' answering all my questions. A year plus liao lo, he never say the word ' i love you'. Till when i can wait for him to tell me? Or it will never happen?Yesterday night he told me that he read my blog, how come he doesn't have response?

The worst things that i fear, is coming soon? I wish i can see my D now.. :(

A Letter to D

2009-05-07T07:54:00.000-07:00

Dear D,

Am i the one that think too much or you are the one that had changed too much till i couldn't recognize you?Dear Dear don't know how much i love you, how much i care for you. Since last year, i never stop missing dear dear. Every night sleep with tears on my cheeks while thinking of you.

I kept asking myself, where i did wrong?Why you have to leave me?Time gone days by days, weeks by weeks and months by months. Until last year, November when i answered your phone calls, it make me realized that i still miss you, and care for u.

This year Valentine, my friend lost his girlfriend in an accident. His story,wake me up. From that moments onwards, i decided want to have you back. No matter what consequence i will face in future. I decided to have 100% of confidence and i believe in you, no matter what you have told me.

But then Dear, sometimes i'm wondering if u know how is my feelings towards you?I'm willing to wait for you, no matter how long it takes.

But how about you dear?Do you love me?Tell me dear. I want to know. I want to know what's inside your heart now.Who am i to you?

From: Sha Po

Standing in front of a crossroads

2009-05-05T23:02:00.000-07:00

Clowdy

Don't know if it's because of the weather or i feel weird today. Mood doesn't seems right to me. Looking out the windows, i saw birds flying around searching for place to rest. Suddenly it makes me think of my current relationship. Let just named him D. D is not handsome, nor extremely rich but he is way too humorous and good in sweet talking. Perhaps this is why his female's friend around him is attracted to him compare to his friend. Most of the girl pay attention to him whenever he does the talking. Maybe that is his main attraction.

He is the one that make me upset, turns my life into a mess and yet i am willing to have him back. Why? I myself couldn't answer it. Does my feeling towards him is far too deep that i thought? Or it just that i want to make him feel guilty for hurting me?

Not one but every single people around me disagree with my decision- to accept him back. Is it because his past? Or i am stubborn enough to stay still with my decision. Decision of together with someone that perhaps won't bring happiness to me? Am i happy now?

No matter how, currently decided to have him back as my boyboy. I felt that he had changed a lot. A different D from what i recognized previously. Last time when having phone conversation with him, he is definitely not at home. Definitely surrounding by a lot of buddies. And now, he stayed at home. Previously he wouldn't bother to tell where is he going or places that he went, or what he did for the whole day. Now, D tell me all about it.

Maybe you are wondering, why am i nagging about here? Perhaps i should feel happy about his changes. Or i should start worrying. I don't know what i should feel now. Yesterday night, he told me that a girl dote for him, since high school. A girl that transform from ugly ducking into Cinderella and most important that girl is still single. I am a girl, so i guess she is waiting for my D to become his D. I really want to know, what is my D's feeling about her. Or perhaps should i worried my future between D and I?

I already a bit lost. Standing in front of a crossroad where road ahead couldn't be seen clearly. I love my D and i hope to have a good ending with D. But there is a sense of uncertainty in my heart.

2009

2009-05-04T03:03:00.000-07:00

Sunny Day

It's been a while since i update my blogs here. Just yesterday i've updated my blog at friendster.com. From this moment onwards, i will updating my blogs frequently,just to put up all my thoughts and feelings.

For the past few years, a lot of things had happened in me, my family, and my friends. February and April 2008, my family welcomed two new members, my lovely nephew- Kian Hui and Irfan. Having my 3 months breaks at hometown. Spends a lot of time with my family.

18th October 2008, Jaycee Tan, one of my best friends since childhood had moved to new phrase of life. December 2008, another good news from her, she is going to be mother. I bet she will be greatest mother ever.

31st December 2008, my family and i had a small gathering to welcomed new year 2009. BBQ and some chit chat.

January 2009 - My eldest sis's kids, started primary 1, 3 and 5. Come back kl for 2 weeks then went back again for CNY. Preparation for CNY. Having a lot of fun this year as new members of family joined us, mummy and i baked cakes and cookies.

February 2009- Continued my last semester of study.

March 2009- Dont know why will meet him back. Someone that hurt me a lot in the past and yet i still couldn't hate him. Rushing for final year project, and assignments.

April 2009- Starts preparing for my final exam and interviews.

May 2009- What will happened next?

All these story i will update slowly later in this blog. Their pictures.. ermm if i can find it because few weeks ago something happen to my laptop (long story la.. lazy to write). But i will try my best to upload some nice pictures here.

Anytime from now i'll have to start a brand new life in a brand new environment (of course not married la). It's time for me to work. I'm wondering how is the working life?Will i ever survived in this working world?

Sort of having phobia now. So how about you? Do you or your family and friends faces same problem as mine?Moving from one phase to another phase of life. Come, and share with me.