Typical Post

Well...

It will be just a typical post today..

I'm getting my 1st pay today~~!!!!

Feel damn happy...

But the bad news is... $$ will disappeared in a second...

Die gao gao....

This Friday my school will celebrating Teacher's Day. And then Saturday will be school

holiday~~

Yahooo..~~Don't have to wake up early in the morning for 2 whole weeks~hehehe...

Dear Dear quite busy lately with his site project..

Spend little time talking to him..

Just hope that everything will go well.. especially during this critical period...

I have to wait for few more weeks only can see him.. Haiz...

D D said, if everything goes well, by August or September, he will have 2 Star Cruise's ticket.

And then me and him will go for 'pre-honeymoon' trip...

Should i look forward it?Cause some say, don't put too high hope on something...

Once you put your trust on somebody, it means that you giving
chances for him/her to hurt you

Punch me

Sunny...

Hope there is someone to punch me now..

24 hours is not enough for me..

$$ is not enough for me..

These few days have to mark all those non-sense essay by Form 1 student. Only now i realized that, become a teacher is not as easy as what they thought. Especially marking exercise, controlling class, etc..

All the students are very very talkative, and believe me.. if you give them 25 hours, they will totally fully use the time to talk...

$$ $$ $$...

D D and me worried about money..

We are still planning for our future.... If only we have future.....

15-05-2009

Sunny..

It's been a while since i update. Recently started new work as English Teacher, busy searching rooms available at the area and online-ing. Hang-ing out with my ji muiss... Angel at 1Utama.

So many things happen and yet dunno where to start.

1st- Went to 1Utama with Angel and meet her sister, Diana, and my ex coursemate - Ai Loon and Ka Ngi (Hope i spelled her name correctly.. heheee). Went to have nice lunch at Chilli's then for movie - Wolverine. A lot of things to buy, yet i only bought a pcs of new clothes and belt from Nichii's. I used to be quite familiar with 1U, but then after ages... it seems like.I almost forgetten where is the location for certain shops. Meanwhile for Angel, i think she can walk with her eyes close.. hehehe... Having a great time with them.

Then ler...

11 May 2009, started my first day job lo. As an English Teacher. Went to the interview previous friday with my friend, Cherry. And both of us got the job instantly. 1st 2 days quite bored for us as we only need to baby-sit few classess and free for the rest of the day. The school compound is not an ordinary school... Very large ler... Cherry and I always lost in certain area..

On the 3rd day, we get used to the environment. The school is having their mid year exam from 13/05 till 20/05. These few days, we invigilate the students. Different level of students. Quite tiring as need to stand/ walk around the classes. My next challenge..How to control form 1 students... Die lo....

Haiz... don't want to talk about the job...

Lately... my health seems to become worst and worst.... i'm worried....

Me and dear dear lately going on quite smooth. Hopefully we will have a good ending after all these long. But who knows what will happen next.

Hopefully all will go smooth...

Happy Mother's Day

Mummy,
Happy Mother's Day. Even though for this year Mother's Day, i still not able to celebrate with you, i promise for the next Mother's Day, you will have a surprise. In fact, not only mother's day, but also your birthday.

Mummy.

Thanks for being always there for me. Even though sometimes i make you sad and angry, your love for me never changed.

I love you mummy..

New Members

Latest Irfan. He sweats all the time, even during raining day. =.="

Posting for his mum to take picture

U see.. Once i took up my phone, he'll make all sorts of cute cute action.

When he was around 6-7 months old, in his yellow Mercedes.

I've mentioned before about two new members in my family- Kian Hui and Irfan. Well, i will let you guys see some cute picture. At first i have hundreds pictures of Irfan, but due to stupid laptop, all the pictures disappeared. Feel very sad loh.. Cause kids grow up in a second and the same pic might not appeared again..

18th April 2008 - My brother and his wife welcomed their precious baby which later be name Irfan.

Why he is name Irfan, seems like Malays name ho.. Ya la Ya la.. My 2nd sis-in-law is Malay. So you know la, my brother converted to her religion. Some people said my bro is stupid la, cause sacrfice to eat pork etc. But i think, love would make people blind. Love is their everything. I do understand how my brother feels lo..

Anyway, back to Irfan. It's been 3 months since i last saw him. 2009 is his first year following us to visits relatives during Chinese New Year. As usual, cute baby is the main attractions among the crowd. He would smile whenever my auntie tend to hug him. I believed his smile would 'killed' girls when he grow older....

Last year 3 months long semester holiday, i spend most of my time with him. He will call me 'gu gu' when he starts to talk. Everyday, i take his pictures in different kind of post. And he is very good in posting. Once Irfan saw i took up my camera phone, he'll post certain cute actions. He'll follow me wherever i went to.

Quite missing him now. By the time i go back end of this year, i guess i'll see cute little boy running here and there.

By the way, i'll work as English teacher at Chong Hwa Independent High School starting next Monday. Mummy quite happy with it but on the same time also worried about me. 1st is because i dont have any experience in teaching, 2nd i'll be teaching lower forms kids (Form 1 & 2) with 50 students in a class. Si liao lo... I begin to regret liao..How ah...Haizz..

Just now called D. He is at McDonald with his friends. Sometimes i think i turns into 'queen control'. And D seems like 'obidiently' answering all my questions. A year plus liao lo, he never say the word ' i love you'. Till when i can wait for him to tell me? Or it will never happen?Yesterday night he told me that he read my blog, how come he doesn't have response?

The worst things that i fear, is coming soon? I wish i can see my D now.. :(

A Letter to D

Dear D,

Am i the one that think too much or you are the one that had changed too much till i couldn't recognize you?Dear Dear don't know how much i love you, how much i care for you. Since last year, i never stop missing dear dear. Every night sleep with tears on my cheeks while thinking of you.

I kept asking myself, where i did wrong?Why you have to leave me?Time gone days by days, weeks by weeks and months by months. Until last year, November when i answered your phone calls, it make me realized that i still miss you, and care for u.

This year Valentine, my friend lost his girlfriend in an accident. His story,wake me up. From that moments onwards, i decided want to have you back. No matter what consequence i will face in future. I decided to have 100% of confidence and i believe in you, no matter what you have told me.

But then Dear, sometimes i'm wondering if u know how is my feelings towards you?I'm willing to wait for you, no matter how long it takes.

But how about you dear?Do you love me?Tell me dear. I want to know. I want to know what's inside your heart now.Who am i to you?


From: Sha Po

Standing in front of a crossroads

Clowdy

Don't know if it's because of the weather or i feel weird today. Mood doesn't seems right to me. Looking out the windows, i saw birds flying around searching for place to rest. Suddenly it makes me think of my current relationship. Let just named him D. D is not handsome, nor extremely rich but he is way too humorous and good in sweet talking. Perhaps this is why his female's friend around him is attracted to him compare to his friend. Most of the girl pay attention to him whenever he does the talking. Maybe that is his main attraction.

He is the one that make me upset, turns my life into a mess and yet i am willing to have him back. Why? I myself couldn't answer it. Does my feeling towards him is far too deep that i thought? Or it just that i want to make him feel guilty for hurting me?

Not one but every single people around me disagree with my decision- to accept him back. Is it because his past? Or i am stubborn enough to stay still with my decision. Decision of together with someone that perhaps won't bring happiness to me? Am i happy now?

No matter how, currently decided to have him back as my boyboy. I felt that he had changed a lot. A different D from what i recognized previously. Last time when having phone conversation with him, he is definitely not at home. Definitely surrounding by a lot of buddies. And now, he stayed at home. Previously he wouldn't bother to tell where is he going or places that he went, or what he did for the whole day. Now, D tell me all about it.

Maybe you are wondering, why am i nagging about here? Perhaps i should feel happy about his changes. Or i should start worrying. I don't know what i should feel now. Yesterday night, he told me that a girl dote for him, since high school. A girl that transform from ugly ducking into Cinderella and most important that girl is still single. I am a girl, so i guess she is waiting for my D to become his D. I really want to know, what is my D's feeling about her. Or perhaps should i worried my future between D and I?

I already a bit lost. Standing in front of a crossroad where road ahead couldn't be seen clearly. I love my D and i hope to have a good ending with D. But there is a sense of uncertainty in my heart.

2009

Sunny Day

It's been a while since i update my blogs here. Just yesterday i've updated my blog at friendster.com. From this moment onwards, i will updating my blogs frequently,just to put up all my thoughts and feelings.

For the past few years, a lot of things had happened in me, my family, and my friends. February and April 2008, my family welcomed two new members, my lovely nephew- Kian Hui and Irfan. Having my 3 months breaks at hometown. Spends a lot of time with my family.

18th October 2008, Jaycee Tan, one of my best friends since childhood had moved to new phrase of life. December 2008, another good news from her, she is going to be mother. I bet she will be greatest mother ever.

31st December 2008, my family and i had a small gathering to welcomed new year 2009. BBQ and some chit chat.

January 2009 - My eldest sis's kids, started primary 1, 3 and 5. Come back kl for 2 weeks then went back again for CNY. Preparation for CNY. Having a lot of fun this year as new members of family joined us, mummy and i baked cakes and cookies.

February 2009- Continued my last semester of study.

March 2009- Dont know why will meet him back. Someone that hurt me a lot in the past and yet i still couldn't hate him. Rushing for final year project, and assignments.

April 2009- Starts preparing for my final exam and interviews.

May 2009- What will happened next?

All these story i will update slowly later in this blog. Their pictures.. ermm if i can find it because few weeks ago something happen to my laptop (long story la.. lazy to write). But i will try my best to upload some nice pictures here.

Anytime from now i'll have to start a brand new life in a brand new environment (of course not married la). It's time for me to work. I'm wondering how is the working life?Will i ever survived in this working world?

Sort of having phobia now. So how about you? Do you or your family and friends faces same problem as mine?Moving from one phase to another phase of life. Come, and share with me.