Clowdy
Don't know if it's because of the weather or i feel weird today. Mood doesn't seems right to me. Looking out the windows, i saw birds flying around searching for place to rest. Suddenly it makes me think of my current relationship. Let just named him D. D is not handsome, nor extremely rich but he is way too humorous and good in sweet talking. Perhaps this is why his female's friend around him is attracted to him compare to his friend. Most of the girl pay attention to him whenever he does the talking. Maybe that is his main attraction.
He is the one that make me upset, turns my life into a mess and yet i am willing to have him back. Why? I myself couldn't answer it. Does my feeling towards him is far too deep that i thought? Or it just that i want to make him feel guilty for hurting me?
Not one but every single people around me disagree with my decision- to accept him back. Is it because his past? Or i am stubborn enough to stay still with my decision. Decision of together with someone that perhaps won't bring happiness to me? Am i happy now?
No matter how, currently decided to have him back as my boyboy. I felt that he had changed a lot. A different D from what i recognized previously. Last time when having phone conversation with him, he is definitely not at home. Definitely surrounding by a lot of buddies. And now, he stayed at home. Previously he wouldn't bother to tell where is he going or places that he went, or what he did for the whole day. Now, D tell me all about it.
Maybe you are wondering, why am i nagging about here? Perhaps i should feel happy about his changes. Or i should start worrying. I don't know what i should feel now. Yesterday night, he told me that a girl dote for him, since high school. A girl that transform from ugly ducking into Cinderella and most important that girl is still single. I am a girl, so i guess she is waiting for my D to become his D. I really want to know, what is my D's feeling about her. Or perhaps should i worried my future between D and I?
I already a bit lost. Standing in front of a crossroad where road ahead couldn't be seen clearly. I love my D and i hope to have a good ending with D. But there is a sense of uncertainty in my heart.
Don't know if it's because of the weather or i feel weird today. Mood doesn't seems right to me. Looking out the windows, i saw birds flying around searching for place to rest. Suddenly it makes me think of my current relationship. Let just named him D. D is not handsome, nor extremely rich but he is way too humorous and good in sweet talking. Perhaps this is why his female's friend around him is attracted to him compare to his friend. Most of the girl pay attention to him whenever he does the talking. Maybe that is his main attraction.
He is the one that make me upset, turns my life into a mess and yet i am willing to have him back. Why? I myself couldn't answer it. Does my feeling towards him is far too deep that i thought? Or it just that i want to make him feel guilty for hurting me?
Not one but every single people around me disagree with my decision- to accept him back. Is it because his past? Or i am stubborn enough to stay still with my decision. Decision of together with someone that perhaps won't bring happiness to me? Am i happy now?
No matter how, currently decided to have him back as my boyboy. I felt that he had changed a lot. A different D from what i recognized previously. Last time when having phone conversation with him, he is definitely not at home. Definitely surrounding by a lot of buddies. And now, he stayed at home. Previously he wouldn't bother to tell where is he going or places that he went, or what he did for the whole day. Now, D tell me all about it.
Maybe you are wondering, why am i nagging about here? Perhaps i should feel happy about his changes. Or i should start worrying. I don't know what i should feel now. Yesterday night, he told me that a girl dote for him, since high school. A girl that transform from ugly ducking into Cinderella and most important that girl is still single. I am a girl, so i guess she is waiting for my D to become his D. I really want to know, what is my D's feeling about her. Or perhaps should i worried my future between D and I?
I already a bit lost. Standing in front of a crossroad where road ahead couldn't be seen clearly. I love my D and i hope to have a good ending with D. But there is a sense of uncertainty in my heart.
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